So this is my first blog. I've never really thought about having a blog until the last few weeks. For the longest time I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, you know, as a career and all that. I am by no means saying that I am going to turn to blogging as a career because, quite frankly, I don't have the slightest idea how that would really work.

I have always loved video games. I am not a professional, nor would I say that I am even all that good, at best I can be kind of annoying to the actually good players, good enough to bother them, but not to beat them. My first real video game that I played was Warcraft II, followed quickly by Diablo II. I loved them both, but my brother is more a fan of the Diablo games than I am. I like them, but not enough to really play them more than one time through which defeats the purpose. I enjoy strategy games and RPGs, mostly. The Elder Scrolls series is probably my favorite. I first got in on those when Morrowind came out for the first X-Box. I really enjoyed the game, but I am a little embarrassed to say that I never actually beat it. I also love the Total War series, but I understand that it takes a certain kind of gamer to enjoy them. I love the battles and the strategy involved.

I realized a few months ago that one of the reasons I love video games so much is that I can disappear into another world and just live another life for a while. I love my life more than I can express, however everyone needs a respite every now and again.

Okay, to be honest I realized that a long time ago, but I got a little distracted in what I was saying. I realized that I loved going into a new world and doing almost whatever I wanted, and it feels awesome to save a world or galaxy or whatever you might be saving, trying to take over, or simply exist in. However, I had the thought a little while ago that as much fun as it is to live in a world someone else created, why couldn't I create one of my own? There are several ways to do this; video game design, TV writers, movie writers, and other things like that. What spoke to me most of all was writing, write a book, blog, short story, something. Truthfully, I don't even know what I want to write about. I do know that I want to help people. I don't want to write some self-help book or some super feel-good book that just makes people comfortable with who they are. I want to help people change for the better, to take courage when they need to, swallow their pride when they must, and to learn that even though sometimes you may feel irredeemable and hopelessly lost, you aren't. The tricky part is I want to write to get those points across in a fantasy-type setting. I know there are lots of excellent fantasy books that do this, and I am not sure that I can pull it off in such a way that anyone will ever read my books (yes, I want to write more than one) but I want to try. I finally found something that I want to do, and I am going to do it, whether I sell one book or a million, which would be amazing, but I don't know about that.

Maybe my style has come across by now, that I am a little scatterbrained, sarcastic, and hopeful, and I am not sure how that makes sense, but I am who I am, and even though I am not perfect, I feel that my style could speak to someone.

It is coming close to one in the morning, and I want to sleep. So... Good night.